Sunday, February 28, 2010

eppy gurl...



well i'm totally eppy n feel better today...better sgt2..sbb nya perkara yg I rase sakit dh hilang...mmm even rase cam something wrong lg I nk ignore jerlh sbb wat per I nk merayu2 lg kt org x cayer kt I..supposed he know what to do but he doing nothing...
well really hope2 smthg will change...relly confirm he will forget what he said..totally...hehehe....well want to stop saying thiz..ok2...want to show something..I love thiz small pillow...becoz it's remember me to someone...Eva n momo also like it...hahaha..wish they don't tell..totally scared...hahaha...



aha..get another one to show...thiz gurl ader sejibik ngan nama I...coz her mom like me so much..so she put my name when the baby come out...yeah she's cute n really like me...hahaha...don't mention I cute too...I know...wah perasannya rase mcm nk tutup mata biler baca...ngehehe....well the end of the word I really want to said both of us really cute...

bzdy gurl....



tada!!!menarikkan..ni bzdy donut nisa...well sbb kitorang x sempat nk beli kek so kitorang pon beli donut n jdkn seperti kek n ni lah hasilnya...comelkan...sbb yg ke 20 tahun so kitorang letak 2 batang lilin yg besar..hehehe...sukernya...yg ni bzdy gurl nya..wish akk semoger pnjg umo n murh rezeki n plezz jgn takot ngan akk..akk x garang taw...penyayang ader banyak...cowi forget to wish...



love u Nisa...

Friday, February 26, 2010

make up n me....

perempuan ngan make up x dapat dipisahkn...make up yg plg penting adalah mata...ok2 makeup by bebo n dikomen oleh ella...yg jd mangsa Nelissa Hamid..opss I jd model tuk mata mlm td...ok2 msti korang xnk dengar per yg I coretkn...ni lh keja yg buang masa...tp menyeronokkn...huhuhu....

ok mater ni di make up cr gelap dicorakkn kt tepi tu supaya lg menarik...



thiz I rase sgt cute...pink colour n colour pe lg ntah..I pon x taw...tp I plg suker corak tepi tu...sgt cntk bebo lukis....Btw I suker lh...



ok korang rase ok x???menawa x kalo I make up cam ni....hhehehe...

nk aiskrim...




cdpnya if dpt mamam aiskrim...bkn nk gemokkn badan juz tetiber rase cam nk mkn...huhuhu...mmm cdpnya...cedap..I rase biler mkn aiskrim blh menenangkn I... I blh jd ceria tp skrg I x ceria lgsung...segaris senyumn pon xde..huhuhu ri ni kempunan nk mkn aiskrim...aiskrim....

time is stop...

masa bagaikan terhenti seketika tuk aku...duduk di satu sudut....hanya aku sorang shj yg tidak brgerak bagaikan patung hidup...apekh mkne sumer ni..kebisinganku mula kurang hanya kesenyapan yg org lain xkn faham....tp kenapa??ntah aku sdri pon x taw..np aku membiarkn diri mcm ni..ke lembah plg bahaya yg aku sndri x pernh terpkr tuk pergi..sgt2 sakit..sp yg nk pergi...xde sp..hmmm kdg2 aku rase mcm buang masa jer mcm ni...kali ni aku x pat menyimpan aper2..aku x blh nk smpn lg..hati aku dh x mampu..termsuk diri aku...dia rase ker mcm ni..mstilh x sbb dia bkn kt tmpt aku..dia bkn nya rase..yg dia taw sumer slh aku..slh aku..tp aku x kater dia slh juz aku nk dia paham aku...hbz aku ni x paham dia??aku wat dia mcm patung ker??smpi mcm tu sekali...kdg2 aku nk taw dia nk aper...aper dia nk?? aku rase kejam sgt biler dia ckp aku wat dia mcm patung...every day..setiap saat..I care bout him..taw ker dia?? jd if dia berubah kerana terpkse..np berubah...setiap kater2 yg terkeluar bagaikn x ikhlas...seperti hanya sygku tuk seketika...tp x mksdkn begitu..hbz mcm maner..syg sgt ker??tp np mcm ni..tp aper yg plg menyakitkn setiap soalan xde jwpn..seperti nk elak..malaz..penat..bosan..hbz aku x rase mcm tu..sbb dia terlau ignore..smpi hal ni jd berulang..perasan x??aku perasan...tp np aku masih bersabar...np aku still menggu masa yg aku sndri x taw aper akn jd..sedangkn aku rase sungguh menyakitkn...smpi aku x pat luahkn..senyap tu jer yg mampu aku wat..sorry?? if u relly sorry u will said so..tp np kemarahan sentiasa keluar..hati aku..pusingan hidup ni terheni kerananya..np aku nk emo2 ni..bosanlh org tgk...tp kt cni jer aku blh ckp..aku x mampu nk bersuara lg....

Thursday, February 25, 2010

my emotion...



shhhhhhhhhh........
I juz want to cry...

tempation of sadness....



Marah??bengang??sakit ati??? Totally yes…why??? somebody hurt me so much…totally hurt…am I look stupid to you?? am I not worth with u???Now I know…really know…everything is done… I don’t care anymore…just go…go…are u satisfied now….do I look like I care??? Not anymore!!!! Sbb org kater I ni lurus..sbb org kate I ni sgt baik…x bermkner org blh mainkn I…np?? U nmpk I mcm bodohkn..u nmpk I ni samer jer kn mcm gurl yg u pernh knal..sbb tu u all rase blh wat kt I mcm2….dh lh I tired for this..stop thinking bout this.. really hurt me…ckuplah…kdg2 cuber lh jd I..cuber jd kt tmpt I… u blh wat ker??? Hati pecah cam mana pon..sakit cam maner pon…xde sp yg kisah..np I perlu rase cam tu..ape gunenya ckp percaya tp hanya sekadar kater2…sembunyikn segalanya..tu percaya ker…I dh taw n I dh sgt2 paham…time is stop by u…

Saturday, February 20, 2010

crazy dream...



to you my beloved....

I had a dream last night that I held you.
And you still seemed as handsome to me.
But when I awoke I found you missing'.
It's just another crazy dream for me.
Crazy dreams linger on as I face an empty
dawn.
With no end to it all can I see.
For I've surely reached the end.
Lost your love to a friend.
Just another crazy dream for me.
Once you were mine and we were so happy.
I never thought that the end soon would be.
But now that you're gone, and I'm so
lonesome.
It's just another crazy dream for me.

sincere
lissa..

Friday, February 19, 2010

sepatah...

Jumaat??ader per ari jumaat...mmmm sepatotnya blh tgk music bank kt KBS tp tetiber kena tgk my grandpa yg sakit...well worry bout him...ari ni is ari diam I...dh sumer org x nk ckp ngan I...it's ok...I dh biaser ngan sumer ni...hmm I x wat paper pon I gak yg kena..nasib I lh cam ni...ish2 poyo btol ayat kt atas tu rase cam nk kena pang jer kn...well I dh ready nk balik kampus...I dh sgt ready dr segi mental n fizikal tuk wat keja2 I yg menimbun..no more entertainment wat sementara wktu...wah semngat nya I tetiber..rase mcm nk bg anugerah kt diri sndiri...anugerah angkat bakul sndri..ish mcm slh jer peribahasa I...mmm xpe2 I dh x ambk BM lg...mmm bengang btol lah I ari ni... I ader download satu citer..punyerlh lama tggu smpi aper yg I nk bukak sumer lembap pas tu blh pulak citer tu x blh bacer...frust btol I...ish I x taw lh nk mendownload ni cam ner...I punye anvtirus pon dh giler...x dpt detect papepon...I rase dh ader trojan dh kt I nya system..isaw2...

Thursday, February 18, 2010

selamanya...

huh!!tensionnya...sumer bnda aku kena wat..sumer bnda tanggungjwb aku..sumer bnda bg kt aku..sumernya aku...tlglh bg space ckit tuk aku...x yah arr nk pakse2..aku tawlh nk wat..juz give me time to do..xkn sbb org yg anda syg sumernya kena VVIP..ish rase cam nk nangis...sabar Nelissa....sabar....sumernya ader sbb kn..ko sendiri jer yg taw.. telan jer lh..tu pon sush ker pas tu simpan..the end..setiap kali yg berlaku sumer salah Nelissa...ingat tu...ingat smpi biler2...sbbnya ko sndri yg taw...selamanya akan begini...

impianku...

rindunya kt kolej...rindu...hahaha biasenya org rindu dok umh tp saya pulak rindu nk blk kolej..pelik2..mmm tp nk wat cam ner saya sgt isaw kn assgmnt yg blum ciap wat..huhuhu....mmm byk bnda nk wat tp ti smpi kolej x taw pulak nk wat per..mission kali ni kena ciapkn segala keja yg diberikn...hbz jer cuti raya cina test akn bermula..tu yg plg menakotkn..blh ker aku score ni...sungguh xde keyakinan diri..huhu...hmmm tetiber rasa nk sangat g camping...nk sgt2 g camping..tdo dlm khemah..pas tu wat bbq...ader unggun api...ader org nyanyi2...wah beshnya kalo dapat cam tu...teringin sgt...maybe sumer tu adlh mimpi...mimpi pon mimpi lah...hmmmm besh sgt..tp saya akn jd kn mimpi ni satu impian..sy pasti akn lakukannya...

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

kali ni sgt merungsingkan....

aigo...totally tired with thiz felling..everything becomes worst n worst..saya ader ati n saya ader perasaan..tlg lah jgn wat sy cam ni..sy btol2 penat...tolong lah...sy x marah juz plezzz jgn wat lg...tetiber teringat ella bertungkus lumus ciapkn slide...aku balik dgn kepenatan yg teramat sgt...x larat nk bukak mata..ella suh aku berusaha tp aku btol2 x larat..mlm tu ella sgt2 marah n kecewa ngan aku...aku taw tp aku xde skit pon tenaga tuk wat...tp aku tetap gagahkan diri tuk wat gak tp malangnya aku mampu wat skit jer..trus t'tdo kepenatan...tepat jam 5 pg aku bgun tuk touch up slide tu td...OMG everything i do is gone...maybe sbb t'tdo smlm terluper nk save..aaa carelessnya...ape aku wat nie...than aper lg aku kena wat balik...aku x bp ingat slide tu ciap kul bp...yg pntg ciap jer aku ngan ella trus discuss nk present cam maner..honestly kitorang neves sgt..aku bkn present bgus sgt...well aku juz berdoa nsb kitorang baik ari tu...well sgt2 baik..lecterur pon suker kitorang present..aku x kisah lah org nk kater terok..tp tu jer kitorang mampu wat...tq for my clazmate yg bg sokongan n dorongan...syg B2...mmuah...aku balik ngan senyuman..perasaan bersalah still ader lg pd ella...kitorang pon wat segmen dr ati ke ati...well bnda ni dh jd 0-0..aku harap bnda ni x kn happen lg...mcm maner nk ambk bidang penyiaran kalo aku sndri x yakin dgn aper yg aku nk bentangkan..aku nk lupekn sumer ni...aku harap aper yg terjd..aku akn luperkn...aku akn mula hdp br...Nelissa chayok...dimana ader kemahuan di situ ader dugaan...jgn putus asa dgn aper yg terjd..

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

CN BLUE




korang minat indie band x...mmm kt Malaysia pon rmi gak indie band cam hujan..bunface..yuna n mcm2 lg lah...btw korean pon ader indie band gak taw...lagu dia totally cdp...i like their song...but not really know their profile coz diaorg still br dlm industri muzik...group name CN BLUE..tu jer lh kot yg taw..hahaha..ti dh blk kampus br blh tanyer kt fanatik2 korea ni..msti diaorg taw...hehehe...

show me the money...



huhuhuhu....saya selalu kata duit adalah bnda yg menakotkan..x taw np...kalo tgk kt dunia skrg ni sumer memerlukan duit..nk hidup perlukn duit..sama gak ngan saya..adoyai duit semakin berkurangan..duit smpanan semakin berkurang...brg sumer dh mahal..kdg2 x lalu nk mkn sbb mahal sgt..hehehe...hmmmm rase mcm nk keja part time jer...tp msti ti kena marah...tp nk wat cam ner segan lah nk mntk parents..dh besar...hehehehe ngada2kn..



hmm beshnya kalo duit dtg dr langit tp tu of coz lah mustahil...hahahaha..kalo cam ni pulak cam ner??



hot x??msti yg mata duitan tu kejar thiz gurl kn..hahaha..well apepon hidup ni kenalah pndi menguruskn segalanya...lg2 yg berkenaan ngan duit...papepon menabung tu penting..tgk mcm sy...jgn kedekut taw..x elok...murah taw rezeki kiter...selamat menabung cik Nelissa...

Eh!!

masa berlalu...waktu pon berlalu...semakin cemburu masa ngan saya..semakin banyak perkara yg muncul dlm hidup..x tertanggung rasenya...tp hati msti kuat..semangat perlu tggi...mmmm mari wat kire2 (Thun br cina+cuti sem+ dok umah= bosannya...)hehehe kalo taw cikgu matematik hbz kena sebat ni..msti kena wat lthn beribu2 kali...sbnrnya byk bnda blh wat tp tetap bosan...tp nk kuar umh pon mlz..baik dok dlm bilik jer...sekrg2nya ader lappy..blh dgr lagu...tgk cerita tmbh dgn pakej on9 sekali..mmmm nk tgk tv pon mlz...balik2 citer yg sama..kalo tayangkn shin chan ari2 tkpe gak ni citer pape ntah..well my frenz rmi gak smbut VALENTINE...tp tuk aper...tuk ingat kekasih??hbz selama ni x ingat kekasih lah dok ingat bnda lain..ish bengang btollah..eh tetiber emo lak..gurau jer..saya x smbut bnda2 ni..x yah tggu valentine..hari2 adlh hari yg bahagia tuk kiter ngan kekasih..ceh jiwang pulak..x kuasa I..hehehe..sebut pasal kekasih it reminds me everything..everything that makes me cannot breath easily...everything will take my hearts away...so sweet n sour...even ader org bahagia tp still ader org sakit kerana cinta...wahai sahabatku bertahanlah yerk..mmm kdg2 saya terpkr betapa hebatnya lelaki blh mainkn prmpuan n blh sorokkan segalanya ...np lelaki tu sgt bernsb baik arr..pelik2...x penat ker b'tkr psngn??seronok ker???nk join blh???nk rase cam ner...ok lah Nelissa stop jer lh story nie..xde penghujung...wat lg sakit pale adlh..

tada...kiter tkr topik lain...well I think thiz pic cute sgt2...what do u think???



well saya ader pic 3 jejaka..yg 1st tu my brother(muker bajet baguskn..x suker..)yg tgh tu my cute little brother(love him so much)yg last sekali my little brother gak(my super hero kt umh,hehehe)



time ni kt Larkin tgh tggu bus..so sbb xde keja sgt saya pon snap gmbr2 ni..my mom pon sporting tok join sekali...hehehe...mmm suker main bowling x..ri tu g main sonok sgt..tp x taw np baling x kuat sgt tp still blh score...smbl duduk2 snap lah pic kt situ...ntah sp ntah ni..tp dia main blh tahan nie...



tq bwk saya main bowling dapat gak cuci mata..hehehe....Nelissa kena stop typing dulu coz need to do some work...mr lonely jgn lh lonely lg...mr no name biler nk ader name nie..mr whateva jgn ingat bgus sgt eh..talk to my hand...hahaha...

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

love letter

My writing hand for someone important in my life...

Are u doing well???
Aren't you sick???
I worry about you without me...
I hope that you eat well even if you are bz...
bundle up when it's cold and..
live strongly without crying...
one day in 2010..
I held a pen thinking about you...
wondering who you would call to you home at nite???
I write a letter that cannot be sent to you...
I worry again today, if you are eating well...
I care about you..I think about you...
even though I know I shouldn't do this..
I'm only thinking bout u today again today...
I worry about u all day...
I write about my heart that cannot reach you...
I worry to much don't I??
I'm talking too much are't I???
I'm only telling you things like a habit...
I keep seeing your tears and so everyday is difficult..
Why didn't I realize how precious you are back then..
Why was I numb when love was coming to me but missing it now...
I didn't know when you are right beside me..
Because I foolish gurl..
Because I was stupid gurl..
I realized after you said that..
I gave you hard time, didn't I??
I'm so sorry..
I will let you to know that I will be good n make you happy..
I believe that you will be fine just as I know you will..
I don't want to stain your smiling pie with my tears...
so today I keep on smiling...

Sincere..
Nelly

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

nmpk biaser jer...

ketika ni..biler ngadap buku saya pon tepikir..mmm aper jd ngan hasil karya saya sndri..aper komen my lecterur bout that...msti hasil penulisan yg terok...nmpk gayanya kena lah cr majalah aksara 2..tp nk cr kt maner...huhuhu....mmm ari ni xde claz.. seronok???mstilah x..dok melengkar atas katil sambil mengadap lappy...hp langsung x berbunyi..ari ni sony senyap x berbunyi..bosan..bosan..assgmnt???mm xde bhn lg cam ner nk wat...ok cik Nelissa dh taw xde bahan g lah cr..well fyi group assgmnt..mcm biaser kena interview org...malaz2...seriusly panaz terik ari ni...g pasar selasa pon rase mcm nk hangus dok bawah cahaya...nsb baik x rmi time2 cam ni..kalo x kompem pengsan..muker dh merah padam dh..terbakar giler...smpi jer bilik trus minum air kelapa...aaahhh..cdpnya...than borak2 ngan bebo...than tu jerlh aktiviti ari ni...hmm cam ni lh life ari selasa...

mengayat...

boring?nope...lapo???nope..ngantok???nope...juz fell empty..why??? i don't know... lots of thing to do...do i look like i care???yes...i need something that can make me smile brightly...aha sok xde claz..today blh tdo lewat...sok blh bgun lmbt...that need to work hard...mr lonely don't eva think that u r lonely...mr no name don't eva think that u don't have name..lastly mr. whateva...don't u dare to use that words...my rumate got a fever..really scared coz my antibody not strong enough..my other rumate always watch muvies n my other rumate again love to go mosque...very nice person..well smthng weird juz happen..kitorang rase cam dh kt skul..we buy food not using polisterin anymore..we use tapuwer..nk jimat bsuhlah tapuwer tu n use again n again...that's ok tp saya nk pulak bawak tapuwer g claz..it's totally weid..it juz happen today..hope it not happen tommorow....